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Jul. 20th, 2008

  • 1:28 PM

As usual, my life is always  full of activities, until yesterday, I am free of those hustle..is really kind of relieve for me, and my finally I have my own sweet time in my new home, where I find it very comfortable. This is what life should be for ones isn't it, I have a Professor cum doctor told all of us that everyday is a new day for him, as he wouldn't know if he still can survive in the next morning, really sounds a bit upset, but someone told me he said this to his students 20 years ago, and now he is still survive. Another friend of mine send me a long message through MSN when I was really upset in the past few weeks and he came across my blog, where I found it really meaningful, and I always left this principles behind my mind, he wrote me this:

Just want to remind you that life is just about living and nothing else

although we tried so hard to kid ourselves to work hard, find a career, make more money, buy that car, wear that shirt, in the end, we all die and what memories, the only thing we can take to our death, had we garnered all these years, slaving and hurting for that salary, so obsessed with it that we thought we can live forever?

when we forget death, we forget to live

because it is our nature to only appreciate the things that are fragile with mortality

if it can't be broken, we cease to care for it

because we are selfish beings, THAT is the only human nature

because we take things for granted readily, because it is already there for us and we always assumes that it will always be there

so, Darren, live everyday to the fullest as if you are going to die the next second

it's ironic how we live everyday only to die one second at a time

but, this is life, and living is all we can do here

 

work hard for your career and job and salary if you want to die with 7 proches and a giant house with a hundred relatives waiting by your death bed to see that you signed your new will with your last breathe and vitality


or live hard for love and spent the rest of your life with the one your heart truly loves in a small house with only your children and grandchildren by your death bed


either way, in the end, you still die


so be happy, because one second of happiness in your life is a permanent memory of happiness which you will be taking to your grave

take care, man (Jonathan Chan)


Thanks dude for reminding me, I will always remember that.... Yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a miracles and today is SMILE. : P

Birthday Thought...

  • Jul. 13th, 2008 at 10:15 PM

Again, another year older, a best friend of mine told me that he scared of being old, as is he is same age as mine, and I think mid of 20 is part of the golden age for men wei...don't you agree? So just I just try to enjoy whatever I have now, who know I cannot see the sun rise in the next morning? Well, I had a simple yet meaningful celebration last Thursday, as we met in Mid valley, then had a surprise, that I shall know nothing for all the planning, but I accidentally knew about it...Then after a long discussion about the dinner, we proceed to Alexis in The Garden, but they do not allow we bring our own wine, which is one of my present, or else they are going to charge another RM70, so I rather bought the Tiramisu and  zucotto dome; I highly recommend the tiramisu, the taste is really yummy, and they bake with liquor, and on top of it, we can use the strawberry juice as the dressing. So the final place for the dinner is 'William's Corner', or the so called, 'Italian Mamak' Hm, relatively I like the food there, cause they are very generous to cook the food with a lot of ingredients, and we tried the new food in the menu. I do not really mind about the environment, but I only concern who is taking dinner with me. I really feel the joy of celebrating my birthday with the same person 365 days ago. Perhaps, I can have this again 365 days later... My wish for the birthday. hm.... they will not come true if I tell out loud.. so I will rather keep them and make them come  true!

The Broadway Musical- Beauty & The Beast

  • Jul. 5th, 2008 at 10:36 AM




My feeling was kind of exited when buying the tickets, Beauty & The Beast is my all time favorite since I was young, the theme song is so sweet and wonderful. Then Yen Wee and myself decided to watch this broadway where it first reach Malaysia after 6 years of showing worldwide. I am quite surprise to see the huge crowds in the plenary hall, KLCC convention center even we went on Sunday evening. The graphic and the sounds effects, the acting, costume are so wonderful, broadway ma, of course have to do it right, but the singing are really good, I can say that the singing is better than the one we watched in the animation. Although it is so good, I still fall as sleep during the acting part without songs. Felt a bit guilty on that, but my tiredness has drive me exhausted... Was busy like nobody's business for the pass whole week to move house, preparing my video show, and my reports for my work force. Still, I feel alive again with this busy life... At least I can still feel I am living in a meaningful society... A special thanks to Tim, Sam, Jason, and my buddies who celebrates Sam, Danny and my birthday together... Thanks for the perfume!

Enzyme-Substrate relationship~

  • Jun. 17th, 2008 at 12:08 AM

Life is meaningful if we want it to be in this way, most of the time we can control our life within our decision, but somehow is out of the control...I knew my decision is stupid  if you came across my problems. Hwee2 text me today and confesed that love is not about possession, but is about caring and giving I do agree with this statement, somehow, I had committed, and I knew what I did is insane. I will rather said I will give final chance to this relationship, but I will not force anyone to make any decision, cause I believe in giving and caring for both feeling.  Then Ysoon told me that love is like enzyme and substrate kind of relationship, and I do agreed on the theory behind. Enzyme always looks for the substrate to combine together to form a compound, and the best part is both of the shapes are unique and they can be attached together; however, once the substrate has changed the shape, then the enzyme could not fit to the substrate anymore, and there will be meaningful if you force them to stick together. So I will rather not force ones to do anything if the substrate has change to another shape to fit to other enzymes... I always believe humans can become more mature after they faced the obstacles, during these few days, I had leaned how to control and be patience to solve my problems, and the process is really tough, especially the heart is really tension, and the feeling was even horrified. How I wish my heart was stop functioning....Until now, I understand why people are so painful because of love, SH still miss her ex after 3 years of separation, Steve hasn't really forgotten his ex after few months of broke up, Ysoon still remembered how he suffered from his previous relationship, Jenny still love her bf even she wished to break up with her bf...Serious, I really surprise to know about this in my real feeling, and for sure you don't want to have it. However, I knew enzyme-substrate  kind of relationship cannot be forced, and I decided to let the substrate to choose the enzymes which it feel comfortable.
  • Location:Home
  • Mood: gloomy
  • Music:A whole new world

numb or pain?

  • Jun. 16th, 2008 at 1:23 AM

I had lost myself since last few days, I am not who I am...sounds strange to my friends who know me well, the happy go lucky types of Darren had left his current role; Love does make a different, especially controlling ones emotion and rather my soul...I could not believe myself can in love blindly without logic. Yes, love is blind, that's why so many people suicide from this matter. I would not know how long can I wait to see the problems to be solved, probably you may think that I am too young to serious in love, but rather I can't believe I am practicing it now; maybe this is what I called faith. Since what had happened to me lately, I knew what is the meaning of love in my life, the feeling is very heart broken, yet, I love it so much cause I knew I can't lost this feeling. There might be so many people out there, and chances, choices are everywhere, but I insists to prefer to stay in this current relationship, because, I love you.... If you ask me why, because I still love you. There is no answer for that, yet, all what I wish is everything resume back as normal. I can wait while I still have the breath... I shall believe nothing is more important in love. We can work hard to earn money, but there is no way we can earn true love without faith and believe.
  • Location:Home
  • Mood: sad
  • Music:I love you

Rise__RIse--RISe--RISE---

  • Jun. 5th, 2008 at 12:52 AM

I just came back from my aunt's place, and all the petrol stations where I passed by are very busy in their business, guess the petrol station owners are smiling all the way until 12 midnight, and our wallet will be start crying after 12 midnight. A hike of 40% can kill the wallets of the owner with high engine capacities, think Perduo Kancil and Kelisa will be the next blockbuster vehicles among Malaysians... or worst, bicycles....? Thanks to the poor public transports we have in the whole nation. Other that this,  we should only burn the candles, due to the 18% increase in electricity rates.....Oops, we shouldn't burn the candles, cause it made from petroleum, might as well turned off everything, and go back to the jingles and stay on the trees like what the Mat Salleh are assuming...!
  • Location:Home
  • Mood: frustrated
  • Music:Here in my home

HeRe in mY hOme

  • May. 29th, 2008 at 10:07 AM

I am so excited to have this in my blog... well, If you turned on the radio lately, for sure you have heard about our latest local production... Here in my home, by our Malaysian Artists. I love this song so much, so my colleague search the link for me. Hope you enjoy this piece of MTV as I do... and pass this to your friends too~ Huh~ http://www.malaysianartistesforunity.info/?page_id=20
  • Mood: excited

Piece of sharing from friends about their opinion...

  • May. 29th, 2008 at 2:01 AM

It was a busy day for me, as I have been meeting 2 girl friends in a different period, and Steve was with me for the whole night meeting our old friends. Both of the ladies had commented about their own opinion in love, one of them had mentioned that it's wonderful to have a relationship, but there must be no promised should be given to each other when attached, and the main reason is to avoid being hurt by the promised. Then she mentioned, if one of them who asked for broke up will bear the largest responsibility, as he or she has to face a lot of issues or opinion from the outsiders. It's so coincident, when we met another girl friend, and we talked about this too, then she commented that the one who get dump will hurt the most, and the one who asked for broke up will not hurt as much as another one. Sounds complicated, cause I suggested not to broke up! Sigh...but anyway, it will not happen. I do agree with what Steve had pointed, he shared that once a couple is broken up, then the one who asked for this must be cruel enough to hold his or her words through not to contact and shows the sympathy. We do agree that men always tried to concerned about the women once they are broken up, but this will worsen the condition. Well, am not an expert in love, but just hope to have my simple love life.  Just a piece of sharing.....
  • Mood: nerdy

A Heartfull Day

  • May. 26th, 2008 at 10:50 PM

I never expect this will happen to me since I am born. Well, this might be a another story next door, but for me, it's rather meaningful. I was driving through Pantai Medical Centre, then I saw a Pakcik who is in his 58 sitting next to the road site and pressing his heart. Then I wonder should I turned back to him, as my mind was quite confused that it might be a trick which always mentioned in the newspaper, eventually, I had made up my mind to and turned to him and I picked him up!!! This Pakcik looks pale and drawn, who just had his operation where a battery has been installed in his heart in IJN.  I was suprised to heart that, and he told me he was here is because the taxi driver who supposed to send him to Damansara had dropped him at the road side.  He was shivering and claimed that he has nothing to eat since he discharged from the hospital. Then I dropped by to shell station and bought him bread and water. In my mind I have no idea where to send him, and thought of send him to the police station, but he refused and enquired me to send him to a Japanese guy, who is working in Menara PJ. So I drove all the way there, where I got the business card from the Pakcik. Initially I thought this is a big con, but I still proceed as there is no harm to send him to the Japanese guy. Up to my surprised, this Japanese guy who is in his 30 and is an expatriate who works here and has been helping this Pakcik once since he met him in the hospital where he did not has any fare to go back to Muar after the previous operation. Well, the Japanese couldn't speak Malay, and the Pakcik only can speak Malay, so I became the translator, and the Pakcik seeks for his help where he needed money to go back to Muar, as he has to take taxi instead of bus due to his current condition. Then this Japanese guy is generous enough to pay him the taxi fared he asked. Then we left the Japanese guy and headed to Pudu Terminal. Hopefully this is not a trick, if it was, nothing lose, but if this is true, I really hope that Pakcik can stay happy for his last 79 days in his life.
  • Mood: calm